Tares Among Wheat

Matthew 12:36,37- "But I tell you that every careless word that people speak, they shall give an accounting for it in the day of judgment. For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned."

I like a few others that have recently started blogging have debated a lot about starting this. But I saw wisdom in it. In that I choose to not think on things, and to be still. Even now there is music playing, well now there isn't. But I've decided that I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. Most of all in who I am, and my complete lack of full devotion to my Shepherd.

For those of you whoever read this. Though I have in my mind that no one really will, for I am not telling anyone of it. I am a believer and follower of Jesus Christ. If you are not, I ask that you read on, you never know what you might get. And if you are, I hope that anything I say might help you, and that you give me the opportunity to learn from you from any feedback you might have.

Lately I have been very much so struggling with myself. I can feel that God shaped hole inside me, and I know that the Lord is in my life, but not enough. I have a burning desire for more. But I also know that what comes with it is what is in Romans 12:1- Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. And frankly that scares me a little. I'm happy in my little bubble of sanctuary that I persist in hiding in from God. If I am to truly have Him enter my life and truly fill me, then I must cross the line in the sand, where I've thrown up my boundaries and insecurities, where my own strength fails to draw me past; and start picking up my cross daily and following Him. This is my goal. I will write once or twice a week here, and each time I must have conquered a fear, and given myself a little more completely to the will of my Father. I will tell you of my adventures in returning. Please read Matthew 13:12, my web address, and think about it, I will also. I hope to rise,

Evan